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An 38 Year Old Uttering Non-sense

by Gen Urobuchi

I dreamt about my first love.

In the dream, she married the despicable man I could possibly imagine. She was abused in every possible way while nursing five children. Mentally exhausted, her eyes had lost their sparkles. Yet, she repeats, "My marriage is full of happiness."

She remained a very beautiful woman, just like when I loved her. I was full of regret when I woke up - Oh, Gen, at least give her a bit of happiness in your own dreams!

I still can't forget being rejected by her. I wasn't able to move on, back then. Now I know she deserve her own freedom. I was shy, with such a poorly conceived confession, of course she couldn't understand my feelings. I should had tried more romantic; I still regret that.

I am now three times of my age back then. How is she now? If I even only a bit of her life now, that dream would be a laughing matter, but now I don't even have a clue of her whereabout. I can only pray for her happiness.

Speaking of people on my mind, there's another. He's a friend that I have lost contact with for nearly a decade.

I have some vague memory of him being a difficult man. His love for movies were second to none, and he's full of hate and disdain for those that failed to understand it. In the end, it seem like the world became his enemy. With such a difficult temper, why did I ever befriend him? I don't get the reason.

Sometimes, We even traded blows when our debates became heated. Through the good and the bad, we stucked together, ultimately for no particularly good reason. Yet after a brief period when we lost touch, he actually disappeared.

I wrote him, but he never replied. Did he moved? Or he was avoiding me on purpose? I tried to find his old contact information, but I lost that too. I have no clue on how to find him. For someone like him, with zero social skills, even dying in a gutter won't be shocking. This really worries me.

Those two, do they still watch anime? Would they have heard of Madoka Magica?

Then Gen Urobuchi that wrote the script, that's actually me! I wonder if you still remember me, even though there're no way to know. We onced walked together on the path of life, boy and girl.

Ah, I finally found success. Now there're many who praises me, and I managed to withstand these congratulations. You can even say that I am proud of the me that I became.

But the ones that I really want praises from, recognition from, how far are they now? How long has time passed already?

These kind of feelings, in my youth they would had never crossed my mind. It's an experience gained with age, one of many.

This life is doomed to a lifetime without love;

Those that still battling for love, they're the true "warriors of love."

Translated from Chinese source http://www.yamibo.com/thread-142422-1-1.html Prima 01:23, 16 December 2012 (UTC)